1117.

I haven’t cried that hard in a long, long time. Lord, please unload my baggage. Sobrang bigat po talaga.

I find it hard to process everything. My emotional compass just broke – the feeling is just enormously unbearable, and I literally can’t breathe and my hands are going numb just thinking about it.

Nothing makes sense, and I don’t know how to deal with it. I would like to believe that I have done my part with every good intention in mind and should just let things be, but I seem to be in some sort of a grand circus. Everything is just unbelievable and feels like a big joke.

God, what am I supposed to learn from this?