1. This was a year of firsts.
I experienced a lot of firsts this year, most of which were very pleasant and fulfilling. This was a year of self-improvement and self-discovery. Let me just highlight a few things. Nicosai and sleeping? Sounds right! Nicosai and sports? Impossible! Well I thought so too, haha! I now finally have a sport (or an active hobby, if this is not considered a sport) that I enjoy doing and is helping me a lot in getting healthier – running! I am not as inactive as I was before, and I actually enjoy going to the gym and working my ass off. Who would have thought? Hahaha! I am very excited about my plans for next year – I’m ticking off a lot of stuff in my bucket list!

2. This year was a comeback to overthinking.
Since this year involved a lot of firsts, most of my experiences challenged my basic paradigms about life. It forced me to overthink things through, but in a very good and productive way. I challenged my personal truth and point of view on hoping and optimism. Here’s something actionable that I learned and a fundamental truth that I am building my life on: Our optimism (or pessimism/realism, if you’re on the other side of the fence) is simply a point of view that does not generally alter outcomes. It does not necessarily make things better or worse. It exists for our benefit – in order to help us put things into perspective. We just have to be extra cautious when our optimism (or pessimism/realism) works against us – that is, if their existence cripples us of our ability to recognize opportunity and act on them, or puts us in a state of fear that is counterproductive to our goals and principles. Which brings me to my next point. Read on! Haha 😀

3. This year, I didn’t let fear get the better of me.
I am generally cautious and calculating. I am driven with certainty and I like to keep a few things certain in my life. It could be because I love math and it has somehow forced me to dwell on probabilities – to calculate risk and decide to act or not act on something based on what the numbers say. And then I read this quote from Aaron Levenstein and it got me thinking: “Statistics are like bikinis – what they reveal is interesting, but what they conceal is vital.” This was when I realized that statistics doesn’t apply to everything. Statistics is a study of probabililty – of chances, of trying to calculate and quantify a certain amount of certainty from uncertainty. There are chances that we take irregardless (or with minimal consideration) of risk, the type that we couldn’t live not taking chances on, the things whose worth cannot be measured by any mathematical tool. We just know them to be worthy endeavors. And this is what I did this year, and I’m generally thankful. 🙂

4. This year involved a lot of patience and waiting.
Oh boy. Patience-testing waiting. The Christmas rush is really pushing most of us here in Metro Manila to a new level of patience – the need to survive 4 to 6 hours of very heavy traffic, waiting in line, and in some cases, very very long walks! But then you can’t help but compare other circumstances in you’re life where you’re either forced to wait or have simply decided to wait, and you realize how integral waiting is in our lives. I am no expert at waiting and being patient, but hopefully I’ll get better at it next year. 🙂

5. This year, I celebrated my flaws and weaknesses.
I have a lot of insecurities. I’m guessing we all do, and it is something that we have a lifetime of working on, accepting, or getting rid of. I normally try not to indulge myself on my insecurities so that it doesn’t cripple me, but this year I tried to be extra-courageous than usual and faced them. I am now working on the things about me that I could improve on, and I am very happy to report that I’m doing marginally well (haha). I appreciate my flaws more this time around, it keeps me grounded, leaves me with no chance of elevating myself inappropriately towards other people, and keeps my mouth shut. Something that we could actually be thankful for. I am just as imperfect as you are, and that’s fine! 😉

6. This year, I experienced a lot of pain.
Foot pain. The experts call it Plantar Fasciitis. My doctor and I like to call it the “No Pain, No Gain” disease. I have been battling with this pain for a year now since I started running this year and diagnosed by my doctor that I was flat-footed (and overweight, wahaha) and was putting too much strain on my Plantar Fascia (foot tissue). My doctor and I kind of negotiated on how to deal with my condition; we decided that I had to manage this pain and lose weight at the same time. I didn’t want to be sedentary anymore, and the doctor didn’t want to see me again ranting about my pain, haha! I’m planning on an insane routine next year which will undeniably put a lot of strain on my foot, but I need to get healthy as soon as possible and eventually get rid of my foot pain once and for all.

And then there’s the other type of pain – the non-physical one. Let’s just stick to foot pain for now, haha.

7. This year, I really tried to listen and opened myself to other people’s truths and point of view.
I am generally a listener. But for the most part of my life, I have been listening with the anticipation of saying something in return, in defense of an idea, or in support of my beliefs. I’m just half-listening. This year, I really lowered my defenses and listened; I recognized other people’s personal truths and tried to look at it from the lens they were viewing their life from. It was very hard not to judge and to look at other people’s perpectives and not compare it with my own, but it was enlightening and actually fulfilling. It didn’t necessarily alter my basic principles in life but here’s what I learned: When it comes to belief, if we are really interested in living a life that is based on truth, we should allow our beliefs to be tested and be put under extreme scrutiny all the time. And in that sense there is really no certainty in life, and I am assuming that when we speak of certainty (and this is how I view my paradigm of certainty), we speak of nothing absolute, and our best bet would be something that we can consistently and persistently abide to, and can soberly be committed to. We produce the certainty in our lives, and if we believe our certainties to be true or to be the reality, we have a lifetime of responsibility on living up to that certainty. All I know is that I’m hearing you guys better now. 😀

8. This year, I planned less and did more.
I like routine. I like to plan stuff, get organized and put things in order. But things are not getting done. This year, I ended my nasty habit of planning too much. I severely limited my planning time and allocated more time in doing stuff. I’m still so far away from how I ideally want things to be, but it has never been this better. I really, really moved my ass this year! Hehe!

9. This year, I expressed love in the best way that I could.

10. This year, I am looking at my glass overflowing with so many good things that have happened in my life. There’s just so much to be thankful for! 🙂

2015 here I come! ^^,


Center for Advanced Hindsight

Every day of the year, American shoppers act irrationally. On Black Friday, however, shoppers’ irrationality and wildness climb to dangerously high levels. Why does Black Friday lead shoppers to grab and fight, especially when the stakes are often as low as fifty percent off toasters?

Over the last few decades, social scientists have cataloged the many different factors that lead to irrational consumer behavior, and Black Friday touches on nearly that entire list.

Luckily though, if shoppers stay aware of how Black Friday is designed to make them irrational—and if they take breaks, eat snacks, plan ahead, and keep a clear mind—then they can avoid falling victim to the “holiday.”

Here are seven reasons shoppers become so irrational and committed to deals on Black Friday, as well as a few ways you can protect yourself.

Black Friday is like a hazing ritual

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Posted: November 29, 2014 in others

I think I seriously fucked up this week, haha.

Let me pick myself up again next week. When you’re down, there’s nowhere to go but up! 🙂

infj score

Roughly five years ago, I had an INTP personality. I took another personality test a year ago and I got an INFJ personality trait. I had another one today and poof! Still INFJ!

Want to take the test? Here’s the link: http://www.16personalities.com/free-personality-test

Want to know more about the INFJ personality trait? Here you go: http://www.16personalities.com/infj-personality

I’m copying notes of my personality type from 16personalities.com for my viewing pleasure. Thank you 16personalities.com!


INFJ personality

The INFJ personality type is very rare, making up less than one percent of the population, but they nonetheless leave their mark on the world. As Diplomats (NF), they have an inborn sense of idealism and morality, but what sets them apart is the accompanying Judging (J) trait – INFJs are not idle dreamers, but people capable of taking concrete steps to realize their goals and make a lasting positive impact.

INFJs tend to see helping others as their purpose in life, but while people with this personality type can be found engaging rescue efforts and doing charity work, their real passion is to get to the heart of the issue so that people need not be rescued at all.

Help Me Help You

INFJs indeed share a very unique combination of traits: though soft-spoken, they have very strong opinions and will fight tirelessly for an idea they believe in. They are decisive and strong-willed, but will rarely use that energy for personal gain – INFJs will act with creativity, imagination, conviction and sensitivity not to create advantage, but to create balance. Egalitarianism and karma are very attractive ideas to INFJs, and they tend to believe that nothing would help the world so much as using love and compassion to soften the hearts of tyrants.

Every man must decide whether he will walk in the light of creative altruism or in the darkness of destructive selfishness.
Martin Luther King

INFJs find it easy to make connections with others, and have a talent for warm, sensitive language, speaking in human terms, rather than with pure logic and fact. It makes sense that their friends and colleagues will come to think of them as quiet Extroverted types, but they would all do well to remember that INFJs need time alone to decompress and recharge, and to not become too alarmed when they suddenly withdraw. INFJs take great care of other’s feelings, and they expect the favor to be returned – sometimes that means giving them the space they need for a few days.

Live to Fight Another Day

Really though, it is most important for INFJs to remember to take care of themselves. The passion of their convictions is perfectly capable of carrying them past their breaking point and if their zeal gets out of hand, they can find themselves exhausted, unhealthy and stressed. This becomes especially apparent when INFJs find themselves up against conflict and criticism – their sensitivity forces them to do everything they can to evade these seemingly personal attacks, but when the circumstances are unavoidable, they can fight back in highly irrational, unhelpful ways.

To INFJs, the world is a place full of inequity – but it doesn’t have to be. No other personality type is better suited to create a movement to right a wrong, no matter how big or small. INFJs just need to remember that while they’re busy taking care of the world, they need to take care of themselves, too.

Trivia: This was originally named Sewing Machine.


Posted: November 17, 2014 in others

I haven’t cried that hard in a long, long time. Lord, please unload my baggage. Sobrang bigat po talaga.

I find it hard to process everything. My emotional compass just broke – the feeling is just enormously unbearable, and I literally can’t breathe and my hands are going numb just thinking about it.

Nothing makes sense, and I don’t know how to deal with it. I would like to believe that I have done my part with every good intention in mind and should just let things be, but I seem to be in some sort of a grand circus. Everything is just unbelievable and feels like a big joke.

God, what am I supposed to learn from this?